The Ballad of Sexual Dependency

In a room in the MOMA in NYC I watched a slideshow of Nan Goldings 'The Ballad of Sexual Dependency', a moving piece chronicling intimate life, exposing bruised lives I sat and wrote for 45 mins.

the ballad:

Leather couch sitting in dark
creeping and coughing behind a
man- a Spanish voice a white
square it will tell answers I
know it - The ballad of .
Sexual Dependency
white eyebrows
old couple – pearl necklace & mickey
mouse headless super her os in open a muscles
dusty boots a look a line a
bend esall race sunny shirtlessness
a mirror dancing jessus sleep ‘
velvet black V please put down
your legs holy tights chains naked
bed a bow smoke muscles anatomy
hairy toilet yes so what ordinair
never look into legs viva fishnet
women why laugh teeth 1244274

Simple MIDWAY PARK ring a look
content lost wide eyebrow the
distance smut to the
leather seat
rubbing wood HUG denim point
just eyed press the match a cross
morning eyes watch lace Brut knee
embrace cry MAN lost ladder
face mask breast bruise towel
dawn window back root kiss the
girl bruised eyes needles bllod shot
burn bruised breast
eyes slit
2gether swelling flowers red
screams tear lines of blood
splatter down pants gun
picnic bang bang bullets tough
knife grown muscle strength
My back open shower don’t

Make me over submerge floating
breasts lie back
running hair squat pregnancy

touch phone inflict Hostage girls
admission dollar a lie feather
held by hair gold street bed
just Re-married thong tropical
she sings on TV wed . Ring
country cake balloon growth
milk sport Baby kiss confused
touch taste flowering wall paper
wrestle centipede outstretched arm

avec looking up pout stomaches touch
ATLAS
this is a mans world fight talk mother
a circle trees in window train watch
no smoking erect pens kiss on sand
guns and a devil mask straps
snake a city cowboy pushing in
motor cycles to drum
pissing BBQ fire linger she had
on
coco boots light changed NO
standing

long snow in bath shellelton hiding

romantic V stained shirt check hug

kinky skeleton MY ouch a

burning lady luck swollen eye one

window goodbye I don’t want

a partner broken tooth loving

new romantic
1946-1955
many men flowers turn away
run away

woods kiss on TV a back shaving
looking down water breathing wipe
this flesh
holding penis ex boardwalk nike hat
back seat hugging
THINK

I guess I have to confess I have been
wandering too-
I wish it could
happen to me

admission $10 pink elephant cocaine white
teeth cuddling baby holding a torch

first heart shaped bruise- Guilty
hard wall chain lace gloves eyeliner
poxy pink light ring square lines on
face a denim jacket look earring
FRONT needles into a gun lady blood

ft 16.90 its 3 nestle a spoon

newsweek camels and brown

lace gloves smoke pain high heels

when your alone- go downtown
the cast- music converse

Monopoly twist girls
girls
girls live

banana shirt at tomorrows parties
an Eiffel lower golds MOT

2 women sit on the toilet flames on

cer seduction grab
unmade beds
neo hugging memories
lace in night shy

father mother husband erect angels
with flowers skeleton
coffin fit up
kiss sleep